The good days.

Today I was going through the pictures on my computer and I came across a few that caught my eye. It is crazy how friends come and go. I miss them all. They have all made me who I am today. I am so thankful for that. It makes me happy being where I am today. I am happy. I went through alot to get me here, where I am today. My friends have always been apart of me. And even if we are all still not friends today, there is probably a reason. But I will always be there for each and everyone of them. I hope they are happy and doing well in life. I wish them the best. These pictures make me smile, laugh, and even cry. Because I have come so far<3

I want the world

Which is very true. I find myself thinking alot about the things I want. I am not sure if it is selfishness or not. I have high standards, I know what I want and will get it.

I have one of the biggest hearts. I will treat you how you treat me.

I watched Marley and Me for the 50th time today and I was crying for literally an hour. I do not know why I keep watching that movie. It is a great movie for anyone who loves animals as much as I do. I seriously want a farm when I am older. I told Danny and he laughs and thinks I am kidding but really, I am serious. I have had pets since I was born and I want more. I love Soph but I want another pet. Badly. I want a kitten, another chihuahua, a boy one! A cockatoo, a bunny, or a ferret! :) I want that for Christmas Danny.. I know you read this sometimes. Ha.

Danny's mom is going to Cali for a month because Danny's sister is having twins. One boy, one girl. She is lucky. Anyway, we get to watch Hurley who is Danny's cat that still lives with his mom. And I am so excited. Her and Soph love eachother. They literally play all day. It is cute.

This weekend was great. Love the holidays. And I love spending them with Danny. We put up our Christmas tree yesterday and it looks so cute. It was worth Danny yelling at me in Walmart because I was spending too much money. And I got just the right amount of stuff and he likes it which I knew he would.

I need to take pictures of our cute apartment and post them.
I also have so much to clean.

I am a good cook and I didn't even know it. I make dinner almost every night and it is always good. And how I know this is because Danny is the most picky eater, so when he likes something, I know it has to be good.

This blog has been very random, but that is me.

Weekend.

Well I started off this morning crying my eyes out. Which wasn't fun. He just doesn't understand how much I really do for him or what I at least try to do. I want to feel appreciated Because honestly, I do alot for him and our apartment. I am constantly cleaning or cooking. I work at least 5 days a week. And I am trying to catch up on school work.

Anyways, he has been talking about an engagement ring alot lately and I am happy/surprised/nervous! Idk how to really feel about it especially with us fighting alot lately. But I guess things will work out. They always seem to. I feel kind of young to be getting engaged but we did move in together so I guess the next step is that. I guess I just never thought this day would come.

I'm thankful for..

My life. My family. Danny<3 My friends. SOPHIE! My job. My apartment. My grant. My car. My bed. My TV. My couch. My laptop. The world. Generous people. Being healthy. I am very happy with everything I have. And I want to thank everyone for everything they have ever done for me. I have an amazing life.

On that note.. Today was the worst thanksgiving I have ever had. Danny and me fought all day. I didn't go to brunch with my family because I wanted to stay and be with him, well then he leaves me to go be with his family. Our washer is leaking all over the place! And Danny being a guy you'd think he would know how to at least turn off the water. But no, he just sit's on his ass and watches tv. He will never do my dishes but he leaves his in the sink for me to do. He won't make the bed. He sleeps all day! He is mad at me because I have Nick as a friend on facebook. Doesn't he know I don't have feelings for him anymore. I love him, I live with him, I honestly want to be with him. I had to work, I didn't get thanksgiving dinner. But the tables I served were very nice and tipped me really well. My cute little family came in and got some drinks that was the only good thing about this day. Ugh. Feels good to vent all that.

Abortion.

Girls who get abortions are heartless.
They do not deserve to live themselves.

Harsh? Well it's the truth.

If they are mature enough to have sex, they
are mature enough to deal with the consequences.

Single.

I remember being single. And it is not at all fun. People act like it is, but really, you feel lost, alone, always searching. Well at least I did. Being independent in a relationship is what I like. I like being so comfortable with someone that you have so much trust in them. It leaves you feeling independent. Your worry free. Trust is a great thing if you have it. It is the most important thing in a relationship. Once you have it, the jealousy fades in both ways. When you are constantly searching for something or trying to make someone right for you, it won't work. Trying to love someone, doesn't make it real, and won't. Love happens on it's own, unexpectedly.

Ilyd.

Sunday Shmunday

Have had a long day! Blahhhh

But me and Daniel got a lot of things done. Have a busy week. Boy do I hate busy.
But busy is good.

Finally got cable and internet! LOVE Danny working at Comcast. We get everything free, which is really nice. Less bills.. More money!

Bahahahhahah Well we are off to bed. :)

LovinLife

Sitting here at my parent's house and I realize how much I miss them. And how much I love their company. They are the sweetest people I know. I just love them (:

Our apartment is finally homey! I love it. Love being on my own. Me and Danny have alot to overcome and lots of things to work on. But that is what makes us great! We can make it through anything and everything!

The holiday is my favorite movie. :)

It sucks not having internet or cable at my apartment.
Can't do anything without it.. That is probably why the house is so clean!
Everything is good. Except I have realized one thing.. I need to learn how to cook. (:

Going to the gym!

Loving our apartment. Can't wait to get our brand new couch, saturday.
Everything is perfect!
Just Me and Soph waiting for Danny to get home (:

Got our apartment today..

Time to partay! :)

Tonight was a good night. Danny's mother is an AMAZING cook.. I love it since my mother doesn't cook haha.

We are looking at apartments tomorrow :) yay! Pinnacle Mountain View is where we are thinking of. I am excited. Just wanna be in our own place already! Gosh.

Just waiting for Danny to get off work.

la la la.

Had a great night at work. Made good good money! Saving up for my car payment and.. An apartment. Will be moving out within the month. I am ecstatic! :)

I la la love my baby Danny!

Hmm that is all.

I am realizing that school just isn't for me. I know I need to go, but why. Well I know why but I just don't have the passion for it. I would rather live my life then sit behind a desk all day. I want to work! That is it. Maybe one day I will have the urge to go back to school. Just right now, it is not something I want.

I am in a Blah mood. It sucks. I hate not getting my way. Grr.
No one really understands how I feel. And no one will even try to.

What a shitty day. I am going to bed. Night.

I am absolutely beat. I need sleep. Waiting for Danny to get home at 1 then staying up til 4 then waking up early for work, freaking sucks! Blahh I am soo tired. Need to catch up on my sleep. Nothing going on tonight and I absolutley love it.

You know, when people copy me I absolutely HATE it. And when they try and make sure I don't know by hiding yourself or making it so I can't see.. Don't worry, I already know. People tell me. Let's be original.

When I lost the love of my life, I LIVED by this quote. So I thought I'd share it.

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, clear a path, and set yourself free.

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Shopaholic
Danny thinks I have a shopping problem and I think he is right. :/

Look how cute he is! I am such a nerd, look at my cake I made him :) He is my favorite. I love him!

Happy Birthday Danny :) 19! WOW.. We are getting old! :( I am mad you have to work on your birthday. Tomorrow will be fun though! Can't wait.
So as me and Danny were driving today I realized something, something that really bugs me. I notice I talk about it all the time. Danny told me to blog about it and I think I will. Here it goes.. It really bugs me when you are stopped at a light turning left and there are a few people in front of you and when we get a green arrow those people take their sweet old time! They are not the only people that want to make it through the light. They are not the only people trying to get somewhere.. Ugh it just bugs me alot.

I haven't been this happy in awhile. I had such a good weekend. I now know why I am where I am. It is where I am supposed to be. He means everything to me. His birthday is tomorrow and I still have not got everything together yet. He should be excited! :)

Halloween was really fun! Partied a little to hard but that is okay (: Still a little hungover. And I have to go to work in a few hours Blahh. Oh well, I need the money!