Passion

I've been lacking passion in my life lately. I am not sure how I came to this and how I have just barley realized because as long as I know I have been feeling this way for quite sometime now. It's a weird feeling. It's an empty feeling. I am very happy with everything in my life now. I feel like I am putting most of my emotions and feelings into things that I don't really care to. Putting these great emotions into nothing has finally got old. I finally feel as though I have found something that I am passionate about. Now this thing I have always thought about and have wanted to put my effort and self control into but I have always been to weak and have let my body win my mind. 

If you know me you know that I am the biggest animal lover. There is just something about every animal that makes me so happy. They are so selfless and forgiving. I believe their one and only goal in life is to be our companions, our best friend, the ones who understand us, the ones that make us happy. We come home to them after a long day and no matter our vibe towards them or how long we left them home alone, they are so happy to see us. I could be having the worst day, but as soon as I walk through that door and I am greeted by them, I can't help but smile and be happy. I only hope that I can make them feel the way they make me feel everyday. This is something I wish I could do for every animal. Sadly, I can't. It's not realistic. 

This is where my title comes back into play, passion. I've found it. Every time I think about my new passion I feel reborn, like I am starting a new life. I feel relief and satisfaction. For 22 years I have been doing the same things, this is a huge step that I have been wanting to take for awhile now. I have tried in the past to change this life style of mine but every time in the past I have given up. I was too weak. This time feels right. I'm ready.

It's only been 3 days but so far since March 20th 2013 I have been truly happy with my new life style and giving up meat. I am sure most of you think that I am crazy but this has nothing to do with you. This is something I have always been passionate about. I've always felt somewhat guilty finding pleasure in eating such a valuable life. I understand reasons for both eating and not eating animals. My main issue is how those animals are treated all their life up until their death. They are cheated life. They will never have a life and be treated fairly and they way they deserve to be. I am done feeling guilty and I am done supporting animal cruelty. 

I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulder. I can breathe. I have so much energy to put into this. It feels great to be feeling so passionate about something I care so deeply for. I am excited to experience this new way of living. I am excited to find different ways of consuming protein and making my body so much healthier. It's exciting to learn more about vegetarian life and beliefs. It feels good to believe.

It's been awhile..

Since I last posted on this blog so I thought I would give it a whirl.
I have been doing great, cancer free and all.
I feel amazing. It's weird knowing that I don't have to go to chemo anymore. Not that I am complaining, It's been really nice to get back to my life.
I am finally back in the swing of things, work wise. I am waitressing at Boston's still and loving it. Soon I will be promoted (again) to a manager position. I am so excited and happy that this opportunity is still available to me. I also recently got another job as a nanny to a 2 month old baby boy named Brenan. He is adorable and I have already learned a lot about babies and being a parent. I will admit that it's not easy. It's a lot of work, but in a fun good way.
D and I recently got gym passes to Ogden Athletic Club. It's an amazing gym. We love it there. I am still working on losing 20 pounds. Let's just say that it's not as easy as I thought it would be. Lately I have been doing horrible at my diet. I need to get back in the swing of things.
I haven't really had the time or any urge to blog lately. I know I say this a lot. Hopefully though I will be better at it and stop neglecting my blog.

Let the diet begin!

This morning I woke up with some motivation to start eating more healthy. This rarely happens so I thought I might as well go with it because I keep putting it off. I thought this would be the perfect time because Danny is out of town and he needs a little more convincing on eating healthy so maybe once he sees that I have bee doing great with it and keeping up he will become more motivated. Yesterday I ate nothing but yummy fatty junk. My body is not happy. I ended up doing nothing last night because I fell asleep so early. This rarely happens but I think it's just what I needed. I am also getting sick so this doesn't help much either. Anyway this morning for breakfast I had egg whites and vegetables.. (green and red peppers and broccoli.) Instead of butter I used a teaspoon of olive oil so everything wouldn't stick to the pan. I love butter and salt so usually I would of drenched it with those unhealthy things but this time I had to make myself not. It was really hard. It was actually really good and after eating I felt healthy instead of stuffed like I usually do. My main goal is to stay away from sugars and carbs and also fatty things like butter. Right now I weigh 135 and I really want to be at 115. My goal is to lose that by the end of August maybe even sooner. I want to start going to the gym regularly I have just been lazy lately. My goal is to start going after work next week because I have a pass to Lady Fitness right now. I'll let you know how things go. Thanks for reading! Happy Dieting!