I want to blog again.

hello,

I know it has been forever. Today as I am sitting on my couch I thought of something.. how much I really miss blogging. Both kids are napping (for now) so I hurry and set my laptop up, write the title and boom Charlie is awake. She is a cat napper. Doesn't nap for longer than 20 minutes usually. Unless its right before bedtime, then she will sleep 4 hours and be up all night. That's okay, I love her. You may be wondering, who Charlie is. She is the newest addition to the family. That's right, I now have two beautiful little girls that I love oh so much. They keep me busy that is for sure. So busy I can't even shower!! Gross, I know. Today I am BEGGING Danny to come home for lunch so I can jump in the shower real quick.

So my days lately consist of changing bums, pumping milk (like a cow), cleaning, and being a personal chef. I haven't really been able to do anything for me. I'm still trying to get the hang of having two kids under the age of two. For example like my shop, Bows Over Bros.. I'm dying to get my site back up and running. I seriously haven't had the time. This weekend! That is my main goal! Wish me luck!

I am going to have to keep this post short and sweet but I hope to be back for good because blogging is such a good outlet for me mentally and emotionally. I am not even sure if anyone even blogs anymore?

Love Always, Kristin

Drifting

I find myself drifting from my computer, this does not include twitter, since I have the app on my phone.
I found a blogger app but it doesn't find this blog for some reason.
I feel bad that I have been neglecting my blog so badly. So here is a warning.
I will probably only be posting updates about chemo and being in remission.
However I go through these fazes. 
I hope to be back in the blogging world sooner rather than later. We will see.
Thank you for reading. Hope you understand. 


Love always, Kristin

Day 02 - The why. Why I started blogging and the meaning behind my blog title.

The reason I started blogging was because I found one blog very inspirational. That blog was Kendra's. I found myself always reading it. She is very honest and that is one thing I look for in people. I thought starting a blog would be a great thing for me. I love to put my feelings on paper. I always hate how my hand becomes tired when I write in my journal but with a blog you don't have that problem. 

It's what got me here.. My blog is titled that because I feel having cancer has brought me to the person I am today. And that I am happy with the person I have become.

Pet Scan

Went well, and a lot quicker than last time. Although, you know that yucky, thick dye you drink before? Well it was very hard to keep that down. It look a lot of mind power and breathing. Thankfully I didn't throw it up there. My stomach held out until I got home. Lucky me. Chemo number five has been a lot different than my first four. This time I am feeling very nauseated. Throwing up at least once a day. Almost like morning sickness, as if I were pregnant. At least now I know what to look forward to during pregnancy. I have always wondered why is that when you are about to throw up your mouth waters? Why? I hate it. On a good note I am starting to feel tons better. I will get my Pet Scan results by tomorrow, hopefully. I am crossing my fingers for shrinking cancer cells. Anxious to see the results..
I started a new blog. A private one. Almost like a diary. This blog used to be that for me but since a lot of people are reading it now I find myself stopping from writing about certain things in my life. I feel like I have to leave things out to not offend people. I don't want people thinking less of me, not that they would, but that's how I feel. Not that there is anything wrong with everyone reading my blog. I actually love it. I just want a place for me, a private place I can write and write about everything. Dreams, losses, gains. Maybe someday I will share but until now, I think it's best to keep some of my life private. 

xoxox