Unhappy

I always turn here when I am going through a difficult time. Wish I came here more often to share things that make me happy. I am a control freak, a big one and when I am going through something that I can't control, I lose sight of happiness. This is something I am working on. Going through these feelings again is a lot more difficult than before. I am having a really hard time keeping my chin up. I have envy towards the people who are living their dreams while I am stuck here, paused, and only moving back to my past. The one place I never wanted to be. I am getting a little ahead of myself, it could be nothing. But something is there. What else could it be? This past year I have been nothing but happy. I have finally started feeling pretty again and doing the things I love and the things that make me happy. I was positive that I would never have to experience anything like this again. so it's hard knowing that I might have to. Thanks for reading. Love Always, Kristin