Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Negativity

Gaining Weight

Hatred

Abuse is all it's forms.

Sadness

Celebrity Gossip

Lies

Illnesses

Headaches

Tragedies

Nausea

Drugs

War

Mosquitoes

Cancer

Just to name a few..

Some of these I think make us who we are and teach us very valuable lessons.

Such as being sick, we wouldn't be as grateful for our healthy days.

Gaining weight, gives us the motivation to eat healthy and exercise.

I think sadness in a way is beautiful, if there was no such thing we wouldn't have any emotion.

Tragedies, make us all come together.

Cancer has changed my life, for the better. I have a new outlook on life.

I am truly grateful for the things that make me feel emotions.

Without these things, I'd be numb. I wouldn't feel.

xoxox

It's in your blood

I can't stay over you.

It seems we drive forever but can never get away from here,

Just one more try.

I'm guessing you are over me, I guess it's bravery.

Because it's black out the window

While you sleep in the passenger seat.

When it's always on your mind but you never speak of the name.

It's in your blood and face and I'm certain it's fame.

So I stayed in the car cause the weather had gotten to me.

But it's really these road signs and freeways that I can't take.

This can't be how you live.

It's like a ball and chain around your waist or this simple state.

Your mind's sick again.

I'm tasting nothing but 4 words,

Please don't leave me.

And it's dark in the winter so your ideas start to sleep.

Well your head is spinning like that carousel, and I know you're a mess after 3 or 4.

But if you make it different then we'll make our way to the surface, and you favorite place.

Where we sit, and we breathe cause I know all the word and I sing you everything.

We're just thoughts so go ahead and speak.

So pick out what you like and call me when you're on the way.

You can spend the night and hope to sleep all day.

For me it's just another week,

Twenty-eight was once how I dreamed.

With your scents on my face I can leave and have you for days.

I still can't see you.

The summer came and we got lost, all of us.

You are nothing without her.

I still won't remember your face,

The features mix too well with this alcohol.

So we cover ourselves in your fear, and stay to watch that moon disappear under these lights.

This city's screaming at me.

And as you breathe the words I better go.

The sun is up and taking back all the shadows that covered this ground,

And our feet, like a blanket of coal.

This song is beautiful. My favorite.

Finally found it online, so it is now on my blog.

I believe it's about a couple who never truly forgot

about one another. In that loving way. Thought I'd share.

I love this.

"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant.

But it's very important that you do it."

-Gandhi

Black Ops?

So if you haven't heard or didn't know, Call of Duty Black Ops came out yesterday. This was something Danny wanted, badly. We would see the commercials for it and he would absolutely go nuts. So I pre-ordered it for his late birthday present. Not sure why because I lose my boyfriend to this game but I did it because I am nice and knew he wanted it. (: Well it arrived in the mail yesterday. After sushi we came home and he wasn't sure if he wanted to play it because then he would want to stay up all night and beat it. But I told him that I wanted to watch him play it. Which never happens! I always leave the room when he plays it, and now I remember why. I have never been so disappointed.. so sick to my stomach, so angry. I thought maybe this was just my opinion because I am a typical girl. I hate gory things, I hate violence, I hate hurting someone. After watching Danny play for a few minutes I tell him to pause it. He does, I look at him and say, "If we had kids, you would not be playing this!" He replied, "Oh, I know!" So I was happy that he agreed with how horrible this game really is. I feel like a nagging mom. But how could I not? I am very mature and grown up and I don't think this game benefits anyone in anyway. It scares me that kids around the world have this game and play it on a regular basis. It also scares me that when I have my own kids, video games will be even more advanced and gory. I will admit that this game looks and feels amazingly real. It feels like you are in the game. But after watching Danny beat a few levels, I was mad and disgusted. People are beating the crap out of people with sticks, you watch bullets go through people's head, you watch people's head's get blown off, you hear people screaming til they die. I am actually mad at myself for ordering that game. I can't watch Danny play it anymore. Maybe I am just a baby. Cause I am sure a lot of people say "It's just a game" but how is it just a game when it looks so real. I wanted to blog about this mainly because I want people to see how horrible it really is. If you ever get the chance to watch someone play, I suggest you do because that is the only way you will see my side. I wonder too if anyone else feels this way? Thanks for listening. (:

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without.

I don't want to live without my family, Danny, Sophie, and Luke.

Could I? Yes, but I choose not too. (:

Xoxox

I am not sure how much longer I can take this. My hair everywhere. It's thinning so much, it makes me want to shave it but it's hard to want to shave it when I still have so much and I don't need to shave it yet. Not sure what to do. It's a yucky feeling having your hair fall out. I never thought it would be so hard.

For the first time in my life I am so excited for winter. This never happens. I want more snow! I love cuddling up to Danny. I put up my tree yesterday. It is beautiful. I need to go buy stockings and a tree skirt. I will post pictures soon.

xoxox

Day 14: A hero that has let you down.

I don't believe in heroes. People always let you down.