I promised myself I would get back to writing. 

As an outlet for myself. Something for me. This has always helped.

I am anxiously waiting for the day that I can "spill the tea"

Basically what I mean.. I can't wait to speak my mind.

Kristin 

To say I am struggling..

would be an understatement.
I don't even know where to begin. 2019 has been the worst year of my life.
The main reasons are losing the ones I love the most.
I have been very fortunate for 28 years to not have to deal with any deaths.
I am not only grieving their loss, but the loss of myself.
I feel like a piece of me has gone with them.

I feel lost. numb. broken. alone. scared. out of control.
Every negative emotion you can think of, I feel it.
Daily lately.

Now I have always struggled with depression, but over the years I have learned how to shake it.
To feel it and then release myself from it. But this year, it has been different.

I have no complaints in my little families life. My girls are thriving. Danny and I are as good as we can be (it is my fault we are not, because of what I am going through.) We just bought a house in sunny Florida. No surgeries in sight. So what is the problem?

I wish I knew the answer.

Tomorrow I will be calling to set up an appointment with a therapist. I should have done this sooner. But I thought I would be able to get myself out of this rut I am in. But it is easier said than done. And I can't. And that is okay.

Love Always,
Kristin

New normal

It has been a little over a week since my last blog entry.

Since then.. I have been a little better since losing Auntie. I am getting back into a routine and trying to keep pushing forward from this. It has been hard but it's doable.. or I guess has to be because what choice do I really have?

None.

A few updates:

Brooke is loving school. (I think) I see so much of Brooke in me. I feel as though I was her as a child. I know how she feels and I have an idea of what she is thinking but I wish I could somehow get her feelings out of her. Who am I to say that right? I am 28 years old and it has taking me this long to deal with my own feelings and emotions.. I hope she knows everything she feels is okay.

Charlie is doing great. We have PT and OT once a week. I am so ready for her to potty train! She has adjusted to her alone time when B is at school just fine. She is excited for next year when she gets to go to school.
We are thinking of casting her right knee again to see if we can get any more ROM (range of motion) in it. She has finally agreed to this. She misses her wheels she's said.

Danny recently got pre-approved for a mortgage. We have been house hunting the past week. It's been fun, nerve racking, and a little stressful with the girls but we are so grateful and excited for a future here in Florida. If we haven't told you yet, we will be staying! Nothing feels more right.

My blog has always been my random thoughts and always will be. I am sure I have mentioned this in the past. But I've been feeling the urge to speak/write what is on my mind lately so here I am.


Love Always,
Kristin

One Month Down

I've been waiting to write this when it was "the right time" or when it got "easier" to but then I realized, this will never get any easier..

My Auntie is one of the greatest people I know. She shared with me her love for friends, relationships, animals, a good book, the ocean, cooking, picture taking, memory making, scrap booking, and a million other things that mattered. She loved to feel.

I always felt like her daughter. We look alike! We've gone through LOTS of the same things. We each have a high school sweetheart named Danny, we both had a form of Lymphoma 💚💜 we've been bald & gone through chemo around the same age. We have similarities.. We have always wanted a farm. We LOVE the ocean more than words. 🌊 Lance Bass is our favorite Nsync member. Quotes and sayings are life. Music is good for the soul. We always believed you're only as happy as you let yourself be. And only you are in charge of that happiness.

There are a few things I can no longer do without losing it completely. I can't listen to the song 'Senorita' by Shawn Mendes or 'Shallow' by Lady Gaga let alone watch the movie A Star Is Born. 'Fill Me In' by Craig David (that was our song) still stops my breath but is becoming more tolerable.

The happy things.. Charlie has your middle name and initials CJ! ❤ The movie "Shag" brings a smile to my face. Whenever I am at the beach, I think of you. That monarch butterfly is always you 🦋 I hope she knows how much I love her! I will forever cherish the memories I was so lucky to make with her. She will always be in my heart. And for the rest of my life I will search for moments of you.

The regrets I have are small and will leave with time.. The last picture I took on my phone was supposed to go to her but never got sent. I had the feeling to call that weekend, but forgot and didn't. I recently watched A Star Is Born, one of her favs, but never got to talk to her about it.

I think the message being, if you think of someone or miss them.. send the text, make the call, the email, the snap, the dm. Tell them. Because life is TOO short! ❤

Please zoom in to read & please share her freaking awesome obituary she wrote. YOU'RE MY HERO! 💚

I've struggled

every day since July 10th 2019. 

Grieving my Auntie has been the hardest thing I have ever done.

and I have been through A LOT in 28 years!

She is 20 years older than me. She lived 48 years. She is so young and full of life.
She was trapped in a broken body. I can't help but wonder where she is now.

I still feel her. It's my worst nightmare now a reality.
Moving away my biggest fear was something happening to her.

I have a few regrets that I am dealing with. I know she holds none of these against me so why do I do this to myself? Have regrets? I remember thinking one day I wanted to call her, I didn't. The next day I took a photo I meant to send her, I never sent it.

One thing I am not good about and I am now working on 28 years too late is communication. I thought of Auntie every day. I hope she knows. I love her more than words. I hope she knows.

I think one of the hardest things is knowing my girls will not really remember her
like I will. They point her out in pictures and I know they remember her now. I wish they could have experienced the Auntie she truly was. She has so many lessons.

She is like my mother. She knew her place well as an Aunt though. Never over stepping but always being there no matter what.

I feel as though she lives on through me. Getting back to my happy place has been easier said than done and for that I am still struggling.

RIP Auntie<3 p="">

New Year, New Me!

Okay okay! I know that saying is so cliche but in this case it's 100% true!

2019 has been a great one so far.
We have done so many fun things.
We have a lot of hard times ahead
but I know we will get through them.

Danny and us girls are STRONG!

A few things that I am working on are..
Eating healthier
Exercising at least 5 times a week
At least 10K steps a day
No alcohol for 60 days
Mindset Reset.. being more positive.

So far I am kicking a** and taking names! 

Charlie has begun her serial casting this week. She is handling it like a champ. Her first surgery is Feb 6th and the second is Feb 20th. I am looking forward to getting these done and behind us.
I am ready to focus on her recovery and her physical therapy.

I am completely loving Florida! I never want to leave.
It has been odd not knowing what our future holds for us.
Not knowing where we will end up.
But it has also made life exciting.

Love Always,
Kristin

let it out.

You know what is hard? Feeling.

It is been months since I felt like me. Looking back now I don't even remember what it is like to even be myself, my true self, the person I long for yet hardly know.

I keep looking for signs to point me to where I need to go.
They have yet to find me.

Ever since I can remember I have ALWAYS been inside my head. The only feelings I ever show to the world are happy ones. Positive ones. On the outside I seem to have it all figured out, I am happy, and I hide every other feeling inside.. WHY?! Why why why! Your guess is as good as mine. If you for some reason know why this to be true, please enlighten me!

I am going to get real deep here so bare with me.
I came across this quote today and it hit me. This is me.

"Sometimes you can get so busy being everyone else's anchor 

that you don't realize you are actually drowning."

Why do I always feel like I need to help everyone else but myself? Seriously. Since becoming a mom and wife, I have lost my total identity. Now please don't think that I hate being both of those things because I don't. I absolutely love it. It isn't even fair that I have to make that a point but for some reason I feel like I need to clarify that. I love my family more than anything and if it wasn't for them, I would be even more lost than I am now. 

I have heard that showing your emotions is a sign of strength so how can I get myself there? How can I teach myself this? I am almost 27 years old. I have been living this way my whole life. Old habits die hard. 

My soul is deep. I feel a million different emotions all at once. Most of the time they are un-explainable. Deep down I feel like I have this purpose but I can't put a finger on what that purpose is. And because I have no idea what my purpose is, I question everything about myself and situation. 

Why this ..

Why that.. 

What if..

I think that is my anxiety talking. I have learned to deal with my anxiety all my life until recently. It has gotten so bad that I don't even want to leave the house. All the what if's.. This is no way to live. I feel for everyone who has been here or struggled with any kind of mental illness. 

I come to this blog when I am struggling the most in life. Once I let this all out I feel like I can breathe again. As if I have been holding my breath this whole time.

Love Always,

Kristin 

The two C's..

Clutter & Children..

For me the combination and meaning of the two are ANXIETY! I have struggled with anxiety my whole life. Now as an adult I am better about how to use it to my advantage.
I remember as a new mom I always asked other moms, "what do you do will all the toys? I just can't have them everywhere in my home." Lots laughed and said something along the lines as, "Welcome to parenthood." or "You will get used to it. The new normal." In the back of my mind I kept thinking.. No, there has got to be a way. And BAM here I am writing this blog! 

My children are 2 & 1 and we already have TOO MUCH STUFF!
If we keep this up, can you imagine what our home and playroom will look like?
It honestly is sickening to think about.

If you haven't noticed I have been OBSESSED with The Minimalists! 
A good friend of mine introduced me to them at the best time in my life. I have been going through something I have never done before.. downgrading! All my life I have always wanted the newest thing, the bigger house, the bigger car, etc. I was always feeding the greediness in me. One day, I woke up and realized where I was and how I wasn't happy. Even when I have everything I have ever wanted and dreamed about. I was not happy with it all! I starting thinking back on my life to see where it all went wrong and I pin pointed a few different instances on where I had gone wrong. I am so grateful for where I am but in all honesty I know what we are doing as a family is only going to benefit our family in the best most amazing ways!

Why should we let go of materialistic gifts?

• It is in the way.
• Less clutter, more space.
• Kids are watching us, if we need the newest phone, TV, clothing etc.. Children too become to need or long for the newest toy, game, etc. Practice what you preach! (My BIGGEST weakness that I have been working on.)
• Happier more productive life.
• Material things will not make your child a better person. 

Read this short essay on Letting Go of Physical Gifts! If you need more insight on this topic. http://www.theminimalists.com/gifts/ because our family is and will be living this for the rest of our lives. My children of course may head a different direction if they choose but that will not stop me from teaching and showing them my beliefs. 

That essay and this podcast is so eye opening. So to all our family and friends, if you are reading this, please gift us experiences. Whether that be a night on the town, a mini trip, staycation, or something as simple as having us over for a meal. Time with you is all we need. In fact we love you more than any gift you could ever give us! Life is short. We want to get out and spend time with those who mean the world to us. We love you all and thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Santa has Christmas covered this year and every year after that. Give our girls experiences and their parents will love you even more than we already do. If you do happen to purchase them something, please do not be offended if we donate it after it has been played with. We say these things in the nicest way. 

"The rules of parents are but three.. Love, limit, and let them be."

Love Always, 
The Moyes Family 

Your Favorite Trees..

My all time favorite tree in the whole wide world is....

A Weeping Willow!

Here is why..

"Green, like the leaves on the branches, symbolizes nature, fertility, and life. 
It also represents balance, learning, growth and harmony. 
Our image of the willow tree represents the strength, stability and structure of the trunk, standing firm and withstanding the greatest of challenges."

Exactly.. what is your favorite tree?
Palm Tree is in 2nd place! 🌴

Martyr

I recently heard about this word and I had to look it up for myself.

What is your definition on a Martyr?
There are no right or wrong answers here.
Comment below now if you have an idea.
I had not a clue. Here is what google says.
Keep reading for more information..

https://lonerwolf.com/martyr-complex-symptoms/

mar·tyr

ˈmärdər/

noun

1. 1.

   a person who is killed because of their religious or other beliefs.

   
   

   "saints, martyrs, and witnesses to the faith"

   • 
     
   • 
     

verb

1. 1.

   kill (someone) because of their beliefs.

   
   

   "she was martyred for her faith"

https://lonerwolf.com/martyr-complex-symptoms/

What can happen in a second?

I have been thinking about what ONE thing I can say
or tell you that happens in a second..
I am actually speechless for once.

Life and Death came to mind first.

Anything can change in the blink of an eye..
OR
A single second.

Love Always, Kristin
Day 1 of 642 Things To Write About..

The Secret.. Your thoughts become things!

The Secret..
If you haven't watched or read this book yet,
this is exactly what your life is probably missing.

Follow along for my secret ride..

TGIM

Thank God It's Monday!
If you didn't know that is what TGIM stands for!
It is actually better than TGIF!
AND YES I SAID GOD BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT IT STANDS FOR!
If you cringe at that I get it. But I better never hear you say TGIF again!
phew.. breathe..

Monday is a fresh, brand new start!

Monday to me is a new day and new week for new opportunities.
New new new!

If you know me at all, and you might..
I am all about positive everything! Literally.
Recently I have gained and lost a lot more people than I ever thought possible.
But I am doing this for me! Not you.

Today I had the WORST workout!
And when I say that, I am not complaining about having to do it. I am complaining to let you guys know exactly what happens to me and what I do about it.. how to handle that negativity.

My body knows exactly how to try and stop my mind and body from everything.
But in reality it has been me stopping myself all along.

Anyway! I get really bad side cramps EVERY run!
But you know what that is actually a good thing for me..
I know exactly when it's coming. It comes as soon as I hit the pavement! I used to "listen to my body" when this would happen and quit. Get upset, not workout, and basically stayed fat!

Until recently, I was SO SICK of using that as an excuse every run and you know what..
As soon as I thought that one run, I kept going! It hurt like hell! But I pushed through it!
And then and every other time every run is better than the last.

The whole purpose of this blog is to hear me out..
I have been where you are every time you make an excuse about something.
Honestly, the only reason you are making them is because that is fear or negativity.
And if you continue to not only give in every time, but you keep making up excuses, then what you are doing isn't right for you! So change that. Fix that. If you HATE running! That is okay! But be active in a way you enjoy.

I have learned recently if you aren't happy in life there is a core reason.
And whatever that reason may be, find it and fight it!
Deal with it. Talk about it. Let it out. Cry it out.

True happiness begins with you. No one else.
Exercise as well as other core things have made me blissful lately.
I want you all there with me so I am on a mission..
Comment below with your first negative thought and let's start there.

Love Always,
Kristin

Younique Kristin

Hi friends!

I know I have been MIA on here for YEARS but I have never forgotten about this beautiful place where I can speak my mind freely! It's what got me here has always been my motto in life and i'm very happy it has always fit my life so well.

Today I am going to be talking about my Y journey!

I've never been happier, ever.

Here is this brand spankin' new chapter in my life.. feel free to follow my new journey with me. I am so excited to share my behind the scenes

May 16th is when it all began! I bought this Presenter's Kit, I am sure you have heard me rave about it lately and in the past! I bought it for the deal or you can call me a Kit Napper! I got $360 worth of makeup and skin care products for only $99!

I purchased this kit on that day because my amazing husband put me on an allowance! 

When I got my kit in the mail I had no idea this beautiful thing would change my life in so many positive and negative ways. 

Positives: SELF WORTH. CONFIDENCE. TRUE HAPPINESS.

Negatives: RELATIONSHIP TENSION. GUILT. COMPLETE CHAOS.

The pro's ALWAYS outweighed the con's! It took my family and I two months to finally come to that conclusion. 

If you have known me at all throughout my life you know that I have always been terrified of confrontation. I avoided it like the plague. I hated small talk, phone conversations, face time, social media, and honestly people terrified me in general. 

Until recently when I took a good look at myself and asked if I was TRULY happy in my skin! 

The answer was always no.

I thought I knew what happiness was, but honestly I didn't.

My life has COMPLETELY sucked if you look at it in a negative way. (I never have or will again complain about it)

I was diagnosed with cancer at age 19.

My daughter has a RARE genetic disorder that prevents her from crawling and walking

I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's late February 2017.

Danny & I have always had some kind of  trial from keeping us from being happy.

Both our families have experienced more than our fair share of cancer or health problems.

And I could go on for days about how my life has not been fair to me whatsoever.

BUT that isn't me! I don't think or work that way! I hate people feeling bad for me. I hate being negative because in reality.. I'm SO LUCKY! 

I hate complaining and complainers! Lately I have had to distanced myself from people I never intended to leave. But mentally, emotionally, and physically it's better for me in the long run. I'm trying to detoxify my life from the downers, complainers, and bad vibers. 

NO MORE MRS. NICE KRISTIN!

This is the best thing I am about to share!

I'M HONEST NOW! To myself, my family, and my friends!

I don't have time or energy to waste anymore. I am done being a walking punching bag. I've started standing up for myself.

My next subject is SAHM's! They have too much pressure! 

I started staying home when Brooke was 5 months old. I quickly became pregnant with Charlie and I thought I had it all figured out.. I wanted to stay home full time with the girls. 

I had been a SAHM for not even 2 full years and I knew something was going on. I was depressed, anxious, lazy, negative, not the best I could be and I knew that.

I remember people always telling me that "You're so lucky you get to stay home." OR my favorite "You don't have a job so what do you do all day?"

Now if you have never had 2 kids under 2 and with special needs.. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR A WORD OUT OF YOUR MOUTH so don't waste your breath on how I should feel about staying home. 

Now I am not saying that you can't be successful at it but it just wasn't for me. 

We started living paycheck to paycheck. I knew we needed me back working if we wanted to keep our cars and house. This not only terrified me but it took a lot more out of my husband. Things got hard. The D word was thrown around the first two months I started at Younique. 

We weren't used to me working. Our household, yard, family, and relationship was falling apart right before my eyes. 

Things are FINALLY starting to look up for us.

Danny has been able to cut back his hours to help me and spend time with us as a family not only on the weekends but week nights! 

I have a VERY flexible job. I basically work when I want. I have been so lucky that Younique happened when it did. Not only has it helped financially but also emotionally. I HAVE SELF WORTH. And true happiness for once in my life! And you'd think people would celebrate for me and with me but that hasn't been the case with all. I have found people are actually a lot more selfish than I ever thought possible. I had more doubters at first than supporters.

All I am trying to say is NEVER GIVE UP! If you feel defeated in something that is never a bad thing. Maybe what you have tried in the past hasn't worked but try it again tomorrow. Find your hidden passion and run with it! Don't look back or wait for anyone. When you are at the top, your true fans will be there with you or right behind you. They will never understand your happiness and what it means to you. LIVE & LET LIVE has been in my mind a lot lately. If you are following your dreams you are doing part of your job. The other part is kindness.. Now if you don't have any of that.. that is why you are where you are. You are the debby downer of life so either change your mind and thoughts OR keep them to yourself  and keep walking! FAR AWAY from me!

Stop making up excuses and instead of saying, "Why me!?" start saying, "Why NOT me?!"

I believe that everything happens for a reason.. You might not know the purpose yet but you will find out soon. 

Thank you all for your support and kind words. 

Love Always, Younique Kristin 

It's Monday!

It's Monday! I normally like Monday's! I'm ready to get back into my routine with the girls. It's so nice to have Danny home on the weekends, but I find that my house falls apart because I'm not in my normal routine. I am able to get bigger things done though because he is able to watch the girls, which is really nice. I was able to get my shop back open this weekend! Finally! I am very excited, I just hope I can keep up with the orders. Ha!

Thought of the day.. I wish I could get the girls to nap at the same time! It seems impossible. One day soon, that's my next goal.

I am currently filling out my planner for the month of October. It's going to be a crazy month. Charlie gets her new casts every week. We have Brooke's 15 month appointment along with Charlie's 2 month appointment. Charlie has early intervention twice this month. Danny goes back on call. And we can't forget about Halloween.

This was a random post, I'm sorry. But I wanted to get on here before I start crazy cleaning.
Hope you all have a great week!

P.S. Charlie is starting to smile, a lot. I'm in love

Love Always,
Kristin

I want to blog again.

hello,

I know it has been forever. Today as I am sitting on my couch I thought of something.. how much I really miss blogging. Both kids are napping (for now) so I hurry and set my laptop up, write the title and boom Charlie is awake. She is a cat napper. Doesn't nap for longer than 20 minutes usually. Unless its right before bedtime, then she will sleep 4 hours and be up all night. That's okay, I love her. You may be wondering, who Charlie is. She is the newest addition to the family. That's right, I now have two beautiful little girls that I love oh so much. They keep me busy that is for sure. So busy I can't even shower!! Gross, I know. Today I am BEGGING Danny to come home for lunch so I can jump in the shower real quick.

So my days lately consist of changing bums, pumping milk (like a cow), cleaning, and being a personal chef. I haven't really been able to do anything for me. I'm still trying to get the hang of having two kids under the age of two. For example like my shop, Bows Over Bros.. I'm dying to get my site back up and running. I seriously haven't had the time. This weekend! That is my main goal! Wish me luck!

I am going to have to keep this post short and sweet but I hope to be back for good because blogging is such a good outlet for me mentally and emotionally. I am not even sure if anyone even blogs anymore?

Love Always, Kristin

B's Nursery

I wanted to blog about her nursery
It turned out so beautiful!

Danny and I have been living in our home for a year now! Crazy how time flies. Although I have never hated the paint color of our house, I actually really liked it. That changed once we painted Brooke's room.. It's amazing what a little paint can do. I now want to paint every room in the house!
I knew I didn't just want to paint the whole wall a color, I was thinking bead board originally but going through Pinterest, I fell in love with wainscoting. My talented husband did the wainscoting along the bottom. We painted that white. The wall color I also saw on Pinterest, it is Rain Washed by Sherwin Williams. (If you are looking at the paint swatch, believe me, I know it looks TOTALLY different.) But trust me once you see it on a wall, you will fall in love. It's a beautiful light/aqua blue. I was kind of mad I picked this for her room because after seeing it on the walls, I wanted it for our master.

Before



During

After



Brooke's Nursery

Frames: Hobby Lobby
Pictures: Etsy shop DezignerheartDesigns
Curtains/Curtain Rod: Bed Bath & Beyond
Crib/Changer: Babies R Us
Bedding: "Brooklyn" by Pottery Barn Kids
Glider: Babies R Us


Thanks for reading!
-Kristin

Brooke Moyes

It's been almost a year since I have posted anything on here. Although, I am sad that I haven't found the time or have found anything worth writing. That is all about to change. Danny and I are expecting our first baby July 23, 2015. Now this is something worth writing about. Let me catch you up on a few things..

October 2014; We decided we should start trying to have a baby. I have always been somewhat concerned I would not be able to get pregnant. I can thank cancer for that. We thought, might as well start trying in case it takes us a year or two.

November 2014; I had a long rough week at work. I thought a glass of wine sounded like just what I needed. First, might as well take a pregnancy test to be sure that was okay. (I had taken one a week earlier, which came back negative.) Peed on stick, positive. Scratch that glass of wine. Freak out a little! (in an awesome way) Greet husband at the door, "I'm pregnant! What should we do?!" His response, "Celebrate!!" 

 From that moment on we were so excited, we are going to be parents! 

We were in shock of how quickly it happened. We are so happy and so thankful. 

Pregnancy, lets face it, it has not been the best time of my life. I don't have the pregnancy glow. I am not one of the lucky ones that just gets a bigger belly. I have gained weight everywhere! And I mean everywhere! I have gotten so many stretch marks. I am still throwing up every morning. (I am 30 weeks pregnant!) I could go on all day of how much harder this has been than I thought it would ever be. But none of that matters because I am going to be a mom! I am so blessed that my pregnancy has been a healthy one. I have this perfect baby growing in my belly. I am so anxious to finally meet her. Have a mentioned we are having a baby girl? Her name is Brooke. Brooke (working on middle name) Moyes.

21 weeks 1 lb. 2 oz.

12 weeks

22 weeks

25 weeks

30 weeks

  
I am hoping to find the time to write more often. I can't wait to catch you guys up on my life. 

Thanks for reading,
-Kristin

Danny and I are getting married in 18 days!

Passion

I've been lacking passion in my life lately. I am not sure how I came to this and how I have just barley realized because as long as I know I have been feeling this way for quite sometime now. It's a weird feeling. It's an empty feeling. I am very happy with everything in my life now. I feel like I am putting most of my emotions and feelings into things that I don't really care to. Putting these great emotions into nothing has finally got old. I finally feel as though I have found something that I am passionate about. Now this thing I have always thought about and have wanted to put my effort and self control into but I have always been to weak and have let my body win my mind. 

If you know me you know that I am the biggest animal lover. There is just something about every animal that makes me so happy. They are so selfless and forgiving. I believe their one and only goal in life is to be our companions, our best friend, the ones who understand us, the ones that make us happy. We come home to them after a long day and no matter our vibe towards them or how long we left them home alone, they are so happy to see us. I could be having the worst day, but as soon as I walk through that door and I am greeted by them, I can't help but smile and be happy. I only hope that I can make them feel the way they make me feel everyday. This is something I wish I could do for every animal. Sadly, I can't. It's not realistic. 

This is where my title comes back into play, passion. I've found it. Every time I think about my new passion I feel reborn, like I am starting a new life. I feel relief and satisfaction. For 22 years I have been doing the same things, this is a huge step that I have been wanting to take for awhile now. I have tried in the past to change this life style of mine but every time in the past I have given up. I was too weak. This time feels right. I'm ready.

It's only been 3 days but so far since March 20th 2013 I have been truly happy with my new life style and giving up meat. I am sure most of you think that I am crazy but this has nothing to do with you. This is something I have always been passionate about. I've always felt somewhat guilty finding pleasure in eating such a valuable life. I understand reasons for both eating and not eating animals. My main issue is how those animals are treated all their life up until their death. They are cheated life. They will never have a life and be treated fairly and they way they deserve to be. I am done feeling guilty and I am done supporting animal cruelty. 

I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulder. I can breathe. I have so much energy to put into this. It feels great to be feeling so passionate about something I care so deeply for. I am excited to experience this new way of living. I am excited to find different ways of consuming protein and making my body so much healthier. It's exciting to learn more about vegetarian life and beliefs. It feels good to believe.