The weekend.

Danny and I had a very successful and busy weekend. We aren't able to move in yet because they haven't finished painting but there is still a lot we have to do before it is move in ready. The house is pretty old, very vintage but I absolutely love it. There is more room than we know what to do with and a great backyard with lots of room to run for Soph and Luke. Unfortunately the couch we have just isn't going to work with the living room so we need to shop around and find another one. Our washer and dryer were delivered to the house yesterday and I love them. They are so pretty and so quiet. I can't wait to use them everyday! 

Yesterday we spent the whole day shoveling the driveway. The house has been empty for awhile so there was so much ice built up. We got all the ice shoveled off the driveway and we salted so if it snows again hopefully the salt will help melt it so that doesn't happen again. The driveway is huge so I think it would be a good idea to invest in a snowblower. Although I don't mind shoveling. We also needed to buy a new garage door opener, so we did that yesterday. There is a lot of cleaning and updating we need to do while we are there. I am excited to finally get to live there. We are in a very convenient location. It is kind of far from family but we are so close to everything. The house is on 36th St. in Ogden so we are very close to Riverdale. Driving around town yesterday I was getting excited about all the things we will be close to. 

Danny and I have kinda been going through a rough patch. It's hard to plan and get things done around chemo. I need a lot of help from him and sometimes I can't do things without him. I hate it. I know he is frustrated and tired from his job and me. I feel like a burden. Even though I know he loves me and will do anything. I can tell right now there is a lot going through his head. We both know that once chemo is over, everything will be better. It will almost be like a new life for the both of us. I am so happy that he has stuck by my side through everything. 

I've come to the realization that having a house is going to take a lot of work. But having a house is something that I have always dreamed of. I can't wait to take on this huge responsibility. This will be another test for Danny and I. This is definitely going to test our relationship but I think this will be good. Before we buy a house together we have to go through these obstacles to see if this relationship is strong enough to get through anything.  

My blog friends

Day 14 - A post about a few of my blog friends.

Porschea, Kendra, Emilie, Lindsay, Kylee;

"Blog Friends" I would consider these lovely ladies people that I adore and admire. I may not see them that much or hang out with them but I feel like I do. I feel like to a certain extent I know and understand them. They are very special people to me. I am so happy they blog because I love reading what they write. I look forward to it. They are very inspiring and I look up to them.  I hope they continue blogging because I am sure I am not the only one who feels this way. I love you girls (:

The Bachelor

I have this obsession with this show. 

Every season I find myself looking forward to Monday's. 

This season my favorite is Emily.

She is so classy and beautiful. She looks like a barbie doll.

I have a really good feeling that she is going to make it to the end. 

Go Emily. (:

Sweet N' Spicy Ribs

Day 13 - Sharing one of my favorite recipes.
I've been excited to do this one but I've had trouble deciding on just one.
I wasn't a big "rib" person until I made this, and it was so easy and so yummy!


This is a crock pot recipe.
Serves 10
Prep time: 20 minutes
Cook time: 8 hours on LOW


5 cups barbecue sauce
3/4 cup packed dark brown sugar
1/4 cup honey
2 tablespoons Cajun seasoning
1 tablespoon garlic powder
1 tablespoon onion powder
6 pounds pork or beef back ribs (I used pork)


01. Combine barbecue sauce, sugar, honey, Cajun seasoning, garlic, powder, and onion powder in medium bowl. Remove 1 cup of mixture, refrigerate and reserve for dipping sauce.
02. Place ribs in large crock pot slow cooker. Pour barbecue sauce mixture over ribs. Cover; cook on LOW for 8 hours or until meat is very tender.
03. Serve ribs with additional reserved sauce. 
Enjoy!

Favorite foods

Day 12 - A post about my favorite foods and my dream meal.
*Favorite foods: I am a huge appetizer girl. I crave..
Boneless Buffalo Wings
Pasta
Spinach and Artichoke Dip
Bean and Cheese Burritos
Fried Rice
Crunchy Green Beans
*Dream Meal:
My grandmas Fried Chicken and Gravy, Mashed Potatoes, and Carrots, 
with a glass of Cranberry-Grape Sparkling Apple Cider. (:

My boggled mind

Sometimes I think I need more inspiration than most people do. I'm constantly looking for inspiration in anything, a song, a letter, a comment, a conversation. Is this a bad thing? I see others living their lives to an extent that I don't think I have reached yet. I know everyone is different and that everyone is on a different page, but sometimes I wish I was on the same page as most. I am content where I'm at, but I want to be further in life.. I hate wishing my life away but I can't help it. I find it hard to live in the moment because I am too worried about my future. I need to remember that good things don't some easy, they take time. 

I have the worst case of anxiety and this is something I never knew until Danny pointed it out, like a flaw. I hated it, no one wants their lover pointing out flaws you have. It took me awhile to come to the realization that yeah I do have anxiety. That is why I freak out about being on time, or I have to make sure the door is locked multiple times a day so I don't get "robbed." It's almost like I try to prevent things from happening to me. Anxiety is something I actually like about myself in some ways, not all. Some days it's so bad, I wish I could turn something off in my head and go back to sleep. I can't wait to talk to a doctor about this once I am done with chemotherapy. I might be able to take some kind of medication now but I think my body has enough medicine in it that I don't want to overwhelm it. 

My mind is always running, nonstop, all day. I come up with the most amazing things in my head. This is something that I love about myself. I think this is why I am not a good listener. I start off focusing on what someone says but then I find myself thinking about what they said at the beginning in great detail that I forget that they are still talking.. I wish I could turn off my brain, not just by sleeping. I wish there were another way. I can't even enjoy the beat to a song because I am too busy listening to the lyrics, finding the meaning and applying it to my life. I am emotional. I would love for someone to totally understand me and get me. I would love for someone to analyze me and why I do the things I do. If this is what therapists do, maybe it would be nice to get one. I wonder if I am "normal" or close to it. I don't believe in normal, that is why I quote it. 

Have you ever spent the day with someone who is exactly like you, I mean down to the pin point. I have. Today I spent most of my day with my dad. I wonder if it's awkward that I find myself so much like him. Good or bad thing? You tell me. I loved spending today with him. Anything I say to him he agrees and always adds something that I agree with. I love talking with him because of how much he gets me. He used to take me everywhere when I was little and I miss going to dumb stores with him. I am kind of mad at myself for not knowing how much alike we are until now. I grew up in the same house with him for 18 years. You'd think I would have known how alike we are but then I think maybe I wasn't the same person growing up. Maybe that is why we didn't get along and butted heads so much. I have changed, a lot but I think it was for the better. I have a closer relationship with my family, I think that is important. Time isn't lost. I still have time to do more things with my family. I mean why not, life is short. Who knows how much time is left. 

I came across this quote today by a guy named Steve Jobs, thought I'd share. "Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma-which is living with the results of other peoples thinking. Don't let the noise of others opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

Comfort songs

Day 11 - Songs that I listen to when I'm happy, sad, bored, hyped, and mad.

Happy: "It's All Been Done" by Barenaked Ladies

Sad: "Be My Escape" by Relient K

Bored: Anything by Lydia to get inspired.

Hyped: "Just Dance" by Lady Gaga

Mad: "Let it go" by Lorene Drive