Everyone needs to invest in a quote book. I have had mine quite some time now, whenever I hear or come across a quote that I like I write it in this book I have. I am coming pretty far with it. It is a lot of writing and does take some time but whenever I am sad, lonely, down, confused, lost, etc.. I read it. And all the wonderful quotes that I have forgot about. They do their job again, and bring me back to the bliss. I love being inspired. That is just one of the ways I breathe and become sane. So many of my quotes are from this amazing TV series, One Tree Hill. And honestly if you haven't watched the first 4 seasons you are missing out on life. I promise! One Tree Hill and my quote book got me through ALL of high school. That is when I can truly say my life was the hardest. I think it is inspiration that keeps me going. Those two things I cannot live without.

Also today in the shower, (during the incident of my 6 month old baby Luke eating boneless buffalo bites.. Yes ate them all and didn't even get sick. Not sure how he couldn't with his little belly.) Anyway during my shower today I was thinking a lot about myself and my life. And how much happier I am when I let things go, when I forgive. I just think about how short my life is and I don't want to spend one day angry at something that doesn't even deserve my time. When I look back on my life I want to believe that I did the right thing, in every situation I come across. Spending my life angry and upset about something isn't the way I want to live it. If I spend my life angry at the world, I will die angry at the world. When I am the farthest thing from angry at this beautiful life I have. I am truly blessed. I think about it everyday, how much worse things could be. But they aren't I am so lucky to be living in this small one bedroom apartment with everything I could ever imagine wanting. I have the best family anyone could ask for. I cannot thank god enough.

So I am not much of a, I guess you could say religious person. I was baptized and brought up Mormon but once I finally found myself and knew the things I believed and wanted I figured out it just wasn't for me. This may be horrible of me to say, but I like to be honest with myself or it drives me crazy. But I do believe in god. And I do believe that when I am married, temple or not, I will be with Danny forever. I strongly believe in that. I guess there is no right or wrong thing to believe in. All we can do is believe right? I follow my heart. It gets me through the day.

Standards. This is my next subject. I may say some pretty harsh things about Danny so please forgive me baby, I will say nothing but the truth! And he will forgive me because he is so forgiving (: Love him. Anyway, I met Danny my Sophomore year, through some friends. From the moment I saw him, I always had a little bit of a crush on him. Yeah he was cute, funny but totally not my type. He was kinda a perve, you know those kinda boys and I was a really sweet innocent girl, still very active in the church. Boys! I guess is what you could call it! He was a young little boy. Heard some rumors of him in junior high. At the time we met he was dating a girl and I was sorta dating someone else. I have a point to all this, I promise. If you have read this far I give you props because I ramble and never really get to the point. I guess you could say I HATE paying attention. Ask Danny, I never listen, I am horrible! Anyway I remember this one night, the girl he was dating wasn't there and same for me. We were hungry and he had just gotten his license which I thought was so cool since my birthday wasn't til February. Well we were going to get something to eat, and he let me drive his car, sounds corny but I was happy.. even though Wendy's was right down the street. Well that night driving his car, I realized something about him. Everything I had heard was nothing but a lie. He was a sweet little boy that I (from one night) had already had this liking to. Yeah we talked a little before but this was the first night we really talked! And from there it escalated. We started hanging out more and more. He would give me rides home from school (: Cute little fairytale. Then we finally made it official. I remember the first time he had ever met my parents was at a Young Womens basketball game that I was playing in, He came and watched. My parents, well my mom thought he was cute. We were together for short 3 months. But those three months we were constantly together! I mean ALWAYS. and really that isn't normal for a 15 year old. But I thought it was the greatest thing. I am going to be a little vague here but Danny was the first boy I had ever.. Did the deed with and he was the last. Little did I know that then.. Not too much later we broke up a little before summer started. I thought I would never live without him, I soon learned that wasn't true. That summer we still had the same friends but for some reasons his friends weren't really friends to him anymore so he started making friends with different people, and lets just say these people weren't the ideal people I thought he would of ended up being close with. Nothing bad about these people, they were just different from everything I knew. But for some reason still, I loved this boy. He went down I guess you could say not really the right path but life is all about trying new things. He began to drink, smoke, doing some drugs. I knew then that wasn't the path I wanted to head..yet! Our Junior year we barely talked. I mean we would see each other often and say hi but that was strictly it. I still loved him. And it was weird because he was changing. When we would talk I knew this wasn't the Danny I was in love with.. It all happened Senior year, That was the first time I would start to drink. My best friend at the time, Kylee was sorta talking to Danny's best friend Mike. So me and Danny sorta started talking again. Little did we know that we were both still in love with each other. And we would try this many times before it finally worked. But it was always his friends, weed, or parties before me. And I knew that wasn't what I wanted. Back to standards.. I wanted the real Danny. The Danny that I fell in love with. The Danny that cared, appreciated, and made me first. This took Almost ALL senior year for him to realize, Which is fine because it was worth the wait. There was this one party that changed his and mine perspectives on life. His friends really weren't his friends.. He turned to me, and of course I would be there for him. He realized he was headed down the wrong path and that in 3 months I would be leaving Layton going to Dixie with all my friends. He knew he had little time to make things right, but he did it. Within that summer I knew he was finally starting to figure out what he wanted, and he was working hard at it. How could I leave him in a month? I couldn't, I didn't. Casey was pretty upset with me. But I just could not leave him. As much as I wanted to go with Case, I didn't. I think that was the best decision I ever made. Because if I would have gone, I wouldn't have him, I wouldn't have Sophie or Lucas. And those three are my world. I have standards and if he wouldn't of met them that one summer we would not be together today. I appreciate him and everything he has been through. I guess I forgave him, for everything. He put me through so much hell, always leading me on and making me believe he had changed. But it wasn't til he knew he would lose me for good. I am so thankful that things have worked out the way I prayed they would. I am truly happy. Now he has this great full time job with great pay and benefits. He has grown up more than anyone I know and in such short time. He is an amazing man that I have loved for years. Thank you baby for doing such great things. I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!

Xoxox

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at crossroads, afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

On a rainy monday..

I have lots to accomplish..

I have to go to work.. boo!

Have to stop at Target to pick out a wedding present.. yay!

I need to go shopping for some new clothes for my trip and interview.. yay, boo!

I need to get everything ready for my interview tomorrow, so nervous!

Good thing I love the rain.

Sept 9th (: I cannot wait for you.. A week in St. George with my baby, Dave, and Mystie sounds very good right now.

Love my life.
Xoxox

I am considering getting my first tattoo.
But to be honest, I am deathly afraid!

Is it possible to be so jealous of someone and the life they live? Even though I have the most amazing life that anyone could ever want?

I think it is. I envy the lives people live.

But I am so thankful for the one I have.
I couldn't ask for anything more.
I have an amazing love, an amazing family, and amazing friends!

I think that people base their lives on the people they love, when that isn't how life should be at all, You live your life for yourself, no one else. You do the things that make you happy, the things you wish to accomplish. I believe you only get this one life to live. So live it as you would want to remember. Live so amazingly that you won't regret not doing one thing.

One of my favorite quotes is: "Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it's a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life and love shouldn't be one of them.." Meaning if your love isn't real, it's okay to fail at it, because there are too many things in life to fail at and love should not be one of them. I truly believe that.

When you are constantly looking for something, you will probably never get it. It is when you are not expecting it that you will find the things you truly want. I believe that.

Recently I have got to know someone that will live how they want, and be truly satisfied by what they have chosen. That is when you will be truly happy<3

home alone

While Danny is off camping, my babies are at my parents. I am sorta happy to have the house to myself tonight. Unfortunately I have to work tonight, but that is okay. I need the money anyway. Sorta excited. Fight night (: Woohoo

I am so going to have a movie night, pretty excited about it.

mad women?

Yeah today I cleaned like a mad women. I don't think I have ever cleaned anything so good before. I am very satisfied. Our apartment was hecka dirty, glad I got the cleaning over with.

Danny is going camping this weekend and I do not know what I am going to do without him. Well I have to work all weekend so I guess that is something I will do..

Dessert night at Corina's was a success, It was exactly what I needed. I love all those girls so much. Glad they are apart of my life.

Pandora is amazing! I hear all these songs I totally forgot about. And I love all of them.

My chihuahua's are a freaking piece of work. But I love them and I wouldn't have it any other way. They keep me sane.

P.S. sorry this post is such a mess, this is how my head works (: Ha!


Xoxox

sigh in relief

Finally my boss at Boston's asked how I would like being a "floor supervisor" and honestly I would love it. Raise! (: Also I have an interview at Davis Hospital Tuesday for an admitting clerk. I am deathly nervous because I would love to have this job. I just need to get my foot in the door. I have a lot of opportunities going on and I am not hating it. Pretty excited about it. Finally my hard work has paid off!

adoption day..

is probably one of my favorite days, and one of the days I absolutely hate. Why you ask? Because, I feel like I could give every one of those pets the best home ever, and it's disappointing that I can't. If I could I would take every single one of those pets home. Seeing them in those little cages all day makes me want to cry. They do not deserve that kind of life. It's ignorant people that I hate. People that breed their animals and people that do not fix their pets. Yeah it is expensive but it is so worth it. Homeless animals are starting to be such an issue today and it is only getting worse. Of course I would love to breed my chihuahuas but I am not selfish, there are so many great animals in need of a home today. People don't need to keep breeding. Both of my chihuahua's are fixed. It was a simple choice for me to make. I didn't want to be a reason so many animals are put down a day because no one will give them a home because there are too many of them. There are too many strays in this world and I wish more people thought this way, maybe we could put an end to this. Adoption first. Animals don't have a voice. So we need to speak for them.

I need some sort of job dealing with this kinda stuff, I think I would be so happy doing something like that. Saving lives for the animals that deserve it. <3

sarcasm.

I really love when people take out their bad mood on me.. Sorry you are mad about something but really, why are you taking it out on me? Douche.

Glad I got that off my chest..
But I ain't lettin it bring me down! (:

Thirsty Thursday, glad I got tomorrow off. Time to clean!

change

I need to quit my bad habits and better my life.

happiness.

I always thought I was happy until now. Now I can say with complete confidence that I am happy, with everything in my life. I have everything I could ever want. Before, like in high school, I always thought I was happy. Once everything was taken away from me, I found the true meaning of making myself happy. I mean there are a few things I miss, a few good friends that I wished I still kept in touch with. But right now I have been living in such bliss that I don't want anything to change. I am sorta scared for some things to change but I know some things really do need to change. I love rambling on about how happy I am because it just makes me smile. I am so in love with my life, to others it may be sickening. :)

Yesterday Danny and I went on THE LONGEST bike ride ever!! I seriously thought I was going to pass over and die. We have this cute little trail right behind our complex that we are seriously on everyday. There is this cute little mote with ducks that we go feed all the time, (I have spent hundreds on bread for them.) I am too big of an animal lover. There are also a family of fox right behind our apartment. They are adorable, we seriously have the best apartment. It overlooks everything. I bought these cute little lights for our deck. I will soon take some pictures and post them.

So we made a pact to start going running every morning really early before work, so we will see how that goes. We both have gained alot of weight since we graduated so we want to get back to our normal selves. I would like to start eating healthy, which sucks because I am a BIG eater I love food. And healthy food just isn't as good.

Enjoy this moment.

Cheating?

Some say living with the opposite sex before you are married is cheating. If that is true, I believe every single couple should do this before they tie the knot. Honestly, there would be so many less divorces. Living with someone will soon show you what life would be like once you are married. You will discover the little things you each do that annoy the other person. You will soon have rules that will be made and sometimes broken. I believe that lots of people make this mistake. I would highly suggest that every couple do this. Me and Danny have had lots of ups and downs. But we are now past that part, we made it and now I have full confidence that I could spend the rest of my life with him. That is the way it should be. Too many people now days are always in a hurry to get married. And honestly, I am not sure why. I used to be marriage hungry, wanted the ring, the dress, the house, the kids, the car. But I grew out of that stage really fast. I like being where we are now. We have plenty of time for all the rest of the things that come along with marriage. I am just really happy to be here with this amazing guy living our lives day by day. I love the unknown.

2 for $20

Wednesday's are mine and Danny's night to go out to eat. Lonestar, we are in love with you :) To save money we like going to the places that have the 2 for $20 deal. It saves us so much money to do that. Lonestar only does their 2 for $20 on Wednesday's. So Wednesday nights you will find us there. Their signature steak wedge is my favorite.

Hopefully when Danny gets home he will be in a better mood than yesterday. We will see.

I have some SERIOUS cleaning to do! Our house is such a mess. Good thing I have the day off tomorrow to get some things done around here. I have so much laundry I need to do. I think we need a maid. Hah but seriously, it's crazy because we really are neat freaks about almost everything, but when it comes to the house somehow we just let it get way out of control. It's crazy.

I hate when I am excited for Danny to get home, and when he finally walks through the door he is just an ass. Yeah I know you work hard and you are tired but really, stop being an ass. Then he turns it around on me. He is sometimes ridiculous. Oh well. I am sorta in a bitchy mood now if you haven't noticed.

On that note, I have totally found the wedding ring of my dreams..



There it is! It's BEAUTIFUL!

Eat, Pray, Love

Is an amazing book.

In one day..

5,388 youths are arrested
4,219 teenagers get an STD
3,610 teens are assaulted
80 teens are raped
2,861 teens drop out of school
1,377 teenagers become mothers
1,106 teenage girls get an abortion
1,000 adolescents begin drinking alcohol
500 adolescents begin using drugs
420 children are arrested for drug use
6 teens commit suicide ...