Everyone needs to invest in a quote book. I have had mine quite some time now, whenever I hear or come across a quote that I like I write it in this book I have. I am coming pretty far with it. It is a lot of writing and does take some time but whenever I am sad, lonely, down, confused, lost, etc.. I read it. And all the wonderful quotes that I have forgot about. They do their job again, and bring me back to the bliss. I love being inspired. That is just one of the ways I breathe and become sane. So many of my quotes are from this amazing TV series, One Tree Hill. And honestly if you haven't watched the first 4 seasons you are missing out on life. I promise! One Tree Hill and my quote book got me through ALL of high school. That is when I can truly say my life was the hardest. I think it is inspiration that keeps me going. Those two things I cannot live without.

Also today in the shower, (during the incident of my 6 month old baby Luke eating boneless buffalo bites.. Yes ate them all and didn't even get sick. Not sure how he couldn't with his little belly.) Anyway during my shower today I was thinking a lot about myself and my life. And how much happier I am when I let things go, when I forgive. I just think about how short my life is and I don't want to spend one day angry at something that doesn't even deserve my time. When I look back on my life I want to believe that I did the right thing, in every situation I come across. Spending my life angry and upset about something isn't the way I want to live it. If I spend my life angry at the world, I will die angry at the world. When I am the farthest thing from angry at this beautiful life I have. I am truly blessed. I think about it everyday, how much worse things could be. But they aren't I am so lucky to be living in this small one bedroom apartment with everything I could ever imagine wanting. I have the best family anyone could ask for. I cannot thank god enough.

So I am not much of a, I guess you could say religious person. I was baptized and brought up Mormon but once I finally found myself and knew the things I believed and wanted I figured out it just wasn't for me. This may be horrible of me to say, but I like to be honest with myself or it drives me crazy. But I do believe in god. And I do believe that when I am married, temple or not, I will be with Danny forever. I strongly believe in that. I guess there is no right or wrong thing to believe in. All we can do is believe right? I follow my heart. It gets me through the day.

Standards. This is my next subject. I may say some pretty harsh things about Danny so please forgive me baby, I will say nothing but the truth! And he will forgive me because he is so forgiving (: Love him. Anyway, I met Danny my Sophomore year, through some friends. From the moment I saw him, I always had a little bit of a crush on him. Yeah he was cute, funny but totally not my type. He was kinda a perve, you know those kinda boys and I was a really sweet innocent girl, still very active in the church. Boys! I guess is what you could call it! He was a young little boy. Heard some rumors of him in junior high. At the time we met he was dating a girl and I was sorta dating someone else. I have a point to all this, I promise. If you have read this far I give you props because I ramble and never really get to the point. I guess you could say I HATE paying attention. Ask Danny, I never listen, I am horrible! Anyway I remember this one night, the girl he was dating wasn't there and same for me. We were hungry and he had just gotten his license which I thought was so cool since my birthday wasn't til February. Well we were going to get something to eat, and he let me drive his car, sounds corny but I was happy.. even though Wendy's was right down the street. Well that night driving his car, I realized something about him. Everything I had heard was nothing but a lie. He was a sweet little boy that I (from one night) had already had this liking to. Yeah we talked a little before but this was the first night we really talked! And from there it escalated. We started hanging out more and more. He would give me rides home from school (: Cute little fairytale. Then we finally made it official. I remember the first time he had ever met my parents was at a Young Womens basketball game that I was playing in, He came and watched. My parents, well my mom thought he was cute. We were together for short 3 months. But those three months we were constantly together! I mean ALWAYS. and really that isn't normal for a 15 year old. But I thought it was the greatest thing. I am going to be a little vague here but Danny was the first boy I had ever.. Did the deed with and he was the last. Little did I know that then.. Not too much later we broke up a little before summer started. I thought I would never live without him, I soon learned that wasn't true. That summer we still had the same friends but for some reasons his friends weren't really friends to him anymore so he started making friends with different people, and lets just say these people weren't the ideal people I thought he would of ended up being close with. Nothing bad about these people, they were just different from everything I knew. But for some reason still, I loved this boy. He went down I guess you could say not really the right path but life is all about trying new things. He began to drink, smoke, doing some drugs. I knew then that wasn't the path I wanted to head..yet! Our Junior year we barely talked. I mean we would see each other often and say hi but that was strictly it. I still loved him. And it was weird because he was changing. When we would talk I knew this wasn't the Danny I was in love with.. It all happened Senior year, That was the first time I would start to drink. My best friend at the time, Kylee was sorta talking to Danny's best friend Mike. So me and Danny sorta started talking again. Little did we know that we were both still in love with each other. And we would try this many times before it finally worked. But it was always his friends, weed, or parties before me. And I knew that wasn't what I wanted. Back to standards.. I wanted the real Danny. The Danny that I fell in love with. The Danny that cared, appreciated, and made me first. This took Almost ALL senior year for him to realize, Which is fine because it was worth the wait. There was this one party that changed his and mine perspectives on life. His friends really weren't his friends.. He turned to me, and of course I would be there for him. He realized he was headed down the wrong path and that in 3 months I would be leaving Layton going to Dixie with all my friends. He knew he had little time to make things right, but he did it. Within that summer I knew he was finally starting to figure out what he wanted, and he was working hard at it. How could I leave him in a month? I couldn't, I didn't. Casey was pretty upset with me. But I just could not leave him. As much as I wanted to go with Case, I didn't. I think that was the best decision I ever made. Because if I would have gone, I wouldn't have him, I wouldn't have Sophie or Lucas. And those three are my world. I have standards and if he wouldn't of met them that one summer we would not be together today. I appreciate him and everything he has been through. I guess I forgave him, for everything. He put me through so much hell, always leading me on and making me believe he had changed. But it wasn't til he knew he would lose me for good. I am so thankful that things have worked out the way I prayed they would. I am truly happy. Now he has this great full time job with great pay and benefits. He has grown up more than anyone I know and in such short time. He is an amazing man that I have loved for years. Thank you baby for doing such great things. I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!

Xoxox