hiccups, go away!

It's crazy how much I have been sleeping lately. My medicine makes me so tired. I am not hating it. I have always loved my sleep. It's nice that I get to do that all the time! I have another test tomorrow morning. :/ an early one! And it's not going to be a piece of cake like today's was. Tomorrow they are doing a bone marrow biopsy in my hip. I heard this isn't very comfortable. But that's okay. I think I can handle it. At least I don't have to be on a special diet like I had to be yesterday. I hate not being able to eat what I want.

Today I haven't had any patience whatsoever. I hate it. I feel bad. I was so mean to my babies and to Danny. Lukey has been sick. Throwing up everywhere and what not. It is the last thing I need. I am not feeling to great, I don't want to be cleaning up after him. Maybe it's a good thing my mom took them for the night. When I got home today from my Pet Scan, Danny was home for lunch and the house was sorta messy. So I started to clean up, which is something I didn't want to do because I was feeling so nauseous and crappy. So I got mad at him, when I shouldn't have. Who really cares if the house is not neat and perfect, I am sure he would of came home later from work and cleaned it up. I am sorry. And thank you for putting up with my grumpy self.

So I have always taken my hair for granted. I am always complaining about how thick it is, it won't straighten, won't curl, I hate the color. Always have hated it. My mom would always say, "Don't hate it. You're lucky to have hair. Remember auntie lost all her hair going through chemo." I never listened. I hate that I didn't. That is probably one thing that I will always regret. I have caught myself before saying "I wish everyone could just be bald.." Well I got my wish. One day this will most likely happen to me. I am not sad or scared. I am more mad about taking it for granted. I think this is a good lesson. Because I will never again take it for granted. That makes me happy. It makes me happy how much I appreciate things more now that I won't have them. It's very life changing. You learn what is important and what isn't. It has changed my ways and outlook on life. I am so thankful for that.