Would it be weird to say that I knew this would happen to me? I can't say that I ever wished it would or wanted it to. But I knew. I do not know whether to be scared, happy, nervous, sad, angry, upset, confused, lost. I can't put into words what I am feeling. I am more scared then anything. I am not good with change. I am scared of the unknown. I am not sure how my body is going to react. I wish I knew the outcome of it all. I have a long journey ahead of me. I am not quite sure where this is going to take me. All I know is where I want to go. I know the things I want to do. I know where I want to be once this is all over. I need strength. I need to be positive and strong. That is the only way I will survive.. Lymphoma, you will NEVER be the death of me.
I have the most amazing family ever. I couldn't ask for anything more than the things they do for me. I am so blessed to have them by my side. I wouldn't be able to overcome this challenge without their love.
I have been blessed with this amazing life. Now it is my turn to overcome this challenge I am being faced with. I pray to God to give me the strength I need.
I was so glad to read your post! I wanted us to talk about these very things that you have already decided for yourself. I too had to make these same decisions at just 21. I decided to be happy, to be thankful for the so many blessings I had been given despite this new obstacle. I knew that with this attitude, my family, my Danny and my faith in God I could make it through. We took one day at a time, one one procedure at a time. It was tough, I let myself feel what I needed...I got angry, I cried and there were days I just wanted to stay in bed, but that was such a small percentage of time. I look back at those days and know that if I didn't choose to be happy and to continue to live life to it's fullest I would not be here today! Life is what you make it and how you overcome earthly trials. Attack it Krissy B! Hold on to us (and Danny) and your faith and we will lift you up and carry you to the future you are dreaming of! This will be just a small chapter of your life, it won't define you but it will shape you and you will be a better person because of it. It's a CLUB, not one you want to join but one that few can understand. You will be amazed at who touches you during this time and who you will touch now and forever cause you have elite rights to this membership. I love you so much, as if you were my own daughter. Thank you for always letting me be a nosy part of your life. When you were 2 you would sit on the back of the couch and rub my head with no hair...I can do that for you in so many other ways that I hope will mean just as much as it did to me. Here we go...let the rest of your life begin!
ReplyDeleteI love you Kristin, We are all here for you if you ever need anything. You are such an amazing beautiful girl and i wish i could take your pain away. You are strong though and will get through this. I will always be here to support you even if its talking at 3 in the morning. Just know you can always come to me for anything. You are the best! If you need anything you can tell me and i will get it done! I wish you and your family the best. love you girl, your the best.
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