Guess who's back..

I am (: Here are some quick updates: I am starting to feel TONS better only 3 days after chemotherapy. I think that might be my record. Just have to keep taking my nausea medicine and I should be fine. Nothing new, I started reading, The Choice by Nicholas Sparks, I love it. I have a new member to the family, well sort of. My puppy Maddy is now living with us instead of at my parents. I got her in the 6th grade for my birthday and now that we have a yard she gets to stay here with me. It's been a lot of fun having her here. My baby bunnies aren't baby bunnies anymore. They are rabbits. They grew up way too fast. The house is coming along great. We love it here. I have been lazy, there are a few boxes left to unpack. We got the ceilings, doorways, and base boards painted. In a few weeks we will start doing the walls. I have some wall paper I need to rip off in the kitchen still.Basically I am just happy that I only have ONE more chemotherapy left. It feels great. I never thought I would make it to here. Glad I have. I bought a new TV for our bedroom. We love it. I hope to be blogging more.. I mean it this time.

Random thought

I never knew bunnies pooped so much..

I never knew you could have so much in common with your nail lady..

I never knew true love until my relationship with Danny..

And I never thought I could actually be a morning person..

It's surreal that I will be in remission so soon..

Ogden Athletic Club is so nice. My new home..

Yay for lazy days

Today I spent most of the day reading in bed. I haven't been feeling good lately and I have been so busy and haven't had a lot of me time so I am glad that I got to do that today. It felt really good. I finished, "the perks of being a wallflower" in just two days. When I read something that quick, you know it must be really good. It was something different. I have never read anything like it, I think that is why I enjoyed it so much. I am not sure what I am going to read now though. I love Saturday's because they are Danny's Friday's! I have been craving TGI Friday's so we are going there for dinner tonight. Tomorrow and Monday we are repainting some of the house. Not really excited about it because I just want to spend time with Danny doing nothing or at least doing something we enjoy. I am going to watch the 6th season of OTH tonight. I haven't ever seen it so I am excited to watch it. I miss blogging and want to do it more but lately I don't really have anything to write about. I have too much on my mind to write. Never felt quite like this before. D is home. Got to go (:

Drifting

I find myself drifting from my computer, this does not include twitter, since I have the app on my phone.
I found a blogger app but it doesn't find this blog for some reason.
I feel bad that I have been neglecting my blog so badly. So here is a warning.
I will probably only be posting updates about chemo and being in remission.
However I go through these fazes. 
I hope to be back in the blogging world sooner rather than later. We will see.
Thank you for reading. Hope you understand. 


Love always, Kristin

Happy Birthday, Kristin Brooke Correa

I am now 20 years old and it feels great. I was nervous about turning twenty but I think this year is easily going to be the best year of my life. It's exciting knowing this. I feel calm and at ease with whatever comes my way. I've never felt this sense of calm. My whole life I've been overcome by anxiety of things that I will never hold the power to. I've tried to take control of too many situations and I've exhausted myself in the process. I am fed up with that state of mind I've been living in the past 20 years. It's time for things to change drastically, and they already have. I honestly can't explain what has gotten me to this point but to be honest, it feels amazing. Enough with that. Valentine's Day was yesterday. I LOVE Valentine's Day! I think it has a point, I notice a lot of people always hating it or thinking it is stupid. Why do we need a day to remember love and to do something nice for our loved one, shouldn't that be every day? I think we should consider this everyday and treat everyday like it's Valentine's Day but we are human and we don't, leaving Valentine's Day special and romantic. We are busy and sometimes don't give our loved ones the time they really deserve. That is why Valentine's Day is necessary. For all of you who HATE Valentine's Day and think it is unnecessary, or dumb, "realizing I'm single day." You are wrong. That is a reason you are probably still single. You obviously aren't happy with yourself. You think you are mature for love, but you are not. What ever happened to being happy for others and realizing that your day might come too when you can enjoy Valentines Day with your lover. Once you have someone are you still going to hate Valentines Day? I highly doubt it. So in conclusion, be happy for others in love. As we all know, it's not easy. Be happy for those who have worked hard for something they have. Have hope and know that one day it will happen for you too. There is no rush to fall in love. When the time is right you will have it. I was a little taken back with people's negative posts on FB. Again, FB.. I should seriously delete it but I find it a great way for communication, in a way. I am not very confrontational that is why I post something here and not there, because I feel safer here. Now on to my birthday and my Valentine's Day. I love that Danny says, "it's your birthday before Valentine's Day. It makes me feel special. I am literally his Valentine. My birthday started off as any regular day, D and I got up sorta early but slept in a little. I was craving McDonalds breakfast so he went and got us that. After we ate we got ready for the day and had some errands we needed to run. First we went to Petsmart to buy things for my bunnies, then we went to Home Depot for some things for the house. After that we drove down to Salt Lake to meet the guy with my baby bunnies, he was so cute and nice and I enjoyed talking to him. Oh on the way chemo kicked back in and I got sick :/ When we arrived home with them we were in such awe we didn't know what to do. First of all they are tiny! Little little. They were so much littler that we thought, they are also so soft and furry. They look fake. It's really amazing to hold something that small and cute. We let them jump around the backyard until one of them jumped through the fence into the neighbors yard, luckily we got it before anything worse could happen. That was the scariest moment ever, we live on a busy street and they are very fast for how little they are, anything could have happened. So my day was going great other than being sick the rest of the day. Danny got me OTH season 6&7 and my bunnies. I had a great birthday. For dinner I decided I wanted to BBQ because it was SO nice and you don't get to do that often in Utah especially in February on my birthday, I've always wanted a summer birthday. Danny made him and I bacon cheese burgers, with bbq sauce. They were so yummy! We sat outside our backyard and ate and I asked him, "How many other couples do you think are eating hamburgers in their backyard? Usually on V-day you want to be all dressed up and go out to eat somewhere expensive." He agreed and we laughed. But honestly, there is nothing I would have wanted to do more. I was so happy just to be with him. We don't have to do anything too expensive or out of the ordinary. I was just happy to be with him and spend time with him. After dinner the doorbell rang. Danny went to get it while I cleaned up. He came in with a box from UPS, it was addressed to me, I was thinking cool, maybe it's my OTH. I asked him what it was and he wasn't sure but he had a huge grin on his face. I kept saying OTH can't be that big. When he finally got it open I saw a dozen red roses, a box of chocolates, and some lavender bath soap. I was so excited and surprised  I kept asking who it was from. I got the card out and read the name at the bottom and it was from Danny. I looked at him smiling and in disbelief, I probably hurt his feelings. I've mentioned before that  he is not the most thoughtful person. So I was very taken back and excited that he actually did something for my birthday. I kept telling him thank you and how much I loved what he did. Here I was after dinner thinking I had already got my presents and my birthday was coming to an end and these show up. I am so hard to surprise because I am up in every one's business. But he did it. He surprised me for the first time in my life. I was the happiest girl in that moment. I love you DFM. Thank you for making me feel special every day. I had the best birthday and Valentine's Day ever. One thing I have been really considering doing is now that I am 20, I want to try not to consume any alcohol until I am 21. I think this would be a great challenge and worth doing. Also very hard because I have not drank for awhile now since I was diagnosed. I will be in remission in a month and at my cancer free party, I will be tempted. I want to use my self control. If I have any. I hate giving up on things so I think I am going to try and stick with it no matter what. My 21 experience will be something fun worth remembering. Who knows, I might not miss it at all and I will realize that. Best wishes to me. 

I miss

My hair
My eyelashes
& My eyebrows 

:/

OTH

One more quick thing. Danny got me One Tree Hill season 6&7 for my birthday.
I am SO excited. I cannot wait to watch them. (:

Em, I will let you borrow them after I am done watching them.

xoxox

Update

Yesterday was a busy day. My parents found a car for Cass that they really liked. It's a Jeep Grand Cherokee 1996. So my dad and I drove down to Salt Lake to take a look at it in person. I loved it and he did too. So he bought it. It already had a sound system and everything. I am a little jealous. Since we were already down there, there was this rabbit hutch I wanted to look at. I ended up buying that as well. (: Since I have a backyard, I have always wanted bunnies. I okayed it with Danny. Soon there will be another addition to the fam. My dad wanted to stop at Cabela's. I was fine with it because I had never been there before. I loved it. I am going to take up a new hobby with my dad, fishing. (I will NEVER keep the fish. I ALWAYS let them go.) I used to go with him all the time when I was little and I always had fun. My dad bought me a pink fishing pole and a pink tackle box. I am  in love with them. The reel on my pole lights up purple and green. It's pretty cool. Hopefully this summer I will be going fishing with him a lot in his boat that he recently got. I am excited. I know I am a nerd (: All I need to get is my fishing license. I got to eat my favorite food last night, Chick-fil-a. Yum. I saw Kendra there with Mike and I was so happy to finally see her. I love her. I hope things work out for her. She is the sweetest person ever. I didn't get home til really late last night because I wanted to surprise Cass. I felt bad because D was home all by himself all  night. Oh well. Tonight we are celebrating my birthday with my family. I won't be feeling good on it so before is better. We are having my favorite meal, Fried chicken and gravy, mashed potatoes, asparagus, lemon salad, and instead of having a cake I wanted a chocolate fondue fountain with strawberries to dip in it. I am so excited just thinking about it. Tomorrow is my 10th chemotherapy and to be honest I am excited. I find this weird because I am usually dreading it but I think I am ready to be done and move on with my life. Yay, almost there. There is my update. I need to go grocery shopping today. I am going to keep an open mind because I usually hate grocery shopping but today is different. I will be going somewhere closer to the house to a new store and I won't have to carry the groceries up a flight of stairs. (: I probably won't be blogging for awhile due to chemo brain. But I will be back before you know it. Everyone have a great week. (:

I'm back

I missed a day due to moving and unpacking. Also the Super Bowl. I am thrilled that Green Bay won. I wanted them to. It was a good, close game. I want to go to a Super Bowl game SO bad. Raiders please! Maybe someday. The unpacking is coming along great. I am in no rush but I kinda feel rushed with chemo coming up and all. I am happy to be even closer to the hospital. That way I can take myself to get my shot the next day after chemo. I won't have to have someone take me. I've got to make this post quick because we still have a few more trips back to the apartment. Then I will deep clean the apartment and hopefully someone will rent it out before march so we can get out of paying that month. Thankfully Danny hooked up cable and internet so I won't have to wait to blog or watch my shows. The Bachelor is making me nervous. I wonder what will happen tonight. I am starting to like Twitter more than Facebook. Never thought I would say that. Facebook is becoming Myspace. Too much drama and negativity for me. Especially from certain people who have nothing better to so than bitch about others. It's annoying. Who am I to judge though. I hope to make a better post later tonight. Like I said I am kinda in a hurry and are just writing my thoughts. Thanks for listening. 

Truth

Getting cancer was a good thing. It helped me prioritize my life and realize the things that actually matter. It's blessed me and helped me to be a better person. I am truly grateful for its teachings and I hope that I can remember what got me here. I am happy to be where I am. Thanks to cancer I can get back to the things I enjoy most. Life has been a learning experience for me. And now is the time to get it right. I can't wait to see what life has in store for me.

Lately

I am doing really good. I am feeling good. I am totally happy. And for once I am feeling healthy. As healthy as a cancer patient can be. I have lots I need to catch you up on. I've been so busy packing and shopping around for things we need for the house that I have once again been neglecting my blog. Oops.
Like B Davis would say,

"Someone once said, 

It's the good girls who keep diaries. 

The bad girls never have the time. 

Me, I just want to live a life I'm gonna remember. 

Even if I don't write it down."

One of my favorite quotes! Packing is coming along great. I never really knew how much crap we really had in this tiny apartment. I thought it was going to be a lot easier than it really is. I haven't had much help, not even from Danny because he has been working all week. So I do what I can and he lifts everything because I am so weak. :/ It's been good for me to be doing something other than just sitting around or even sleeping. I am so happy that I have had a long feel good week. It seems like chemo is getting a lot easier. Knock on wood. I am down for five days at the most and then I am feeling okay for the rest of the time. I have noticed that I am a lot more tired than I've ever been. After a long day of packing and moving I am so ready for bed that I have no trouble falling asleep. Now I know what it's like to be exhausted and to sleep well. In a month I will be in remission forever. I can't wait. I am so close I almost can't believe it. Just yesterday it feels like I was sitting in the clinic with my grandma finding out that there was something in the xray. Now I am 3 away from my new life! I am so happy. Last night I got to see Emilie and Cody. I was so happy to see them. My mom does glitter toes so they came and got their's done. They turned out really cute. We got to talk about things. I don't know much about them even though we graduated together and it makes me sad that we weren't friends in high school. But at least now we can be. Pretty soon I hope to start having bachelor parties on Monday night. I also want to throw a little house warming party once I am all moved in. I think that would be fun. I will definitely be throwing a cancer free party! That is what I am most excited for. I think I am ready to start working again. Once I am through with chemo I can't wait to get back in the routine of working. I am mostly excited because the money I make will be mine. And not spent on bills or dumb things like that. Now I can buy things for myself and the house. It's exciting. I owe a huge thank you to Kendra. Lately she is who I go to when I am in need of some reassurance. Mainly because we are so much alike. She definitely knows what to say and when. I love that. It's crazy because we were once enemies, but we were also dumb immature high schoolers. I am so happy that we were able to put the past aside and start fresh. It's a big breath of fresh air to be able to do that with others. I have been juggling between Clearfield and Ogden lately and let me just say that I absolutely love Ogden. I never thought I could actually see myself ever living there but now I don't want to leave. It's so close to everything. It's city life but not too much city like Salt Lake. I've come to the mind set that cancer won't be back anytime soon. And if it somehow does come back, I will kick butt just like I have in the past. I am tired of living in fear. I want to be happy in mind and body. The only way I can truly be that is to take a breath and not worry what the future will bring. I am not there yet. I am here. So I am going to be blissful when I am healthy, also blissful when I am not. I hope that I can keep my mind in a peaceful place. It's work but it's worth working on. I hope to be back to blogging at least once a day once I am done packing and moving and we are stable at our new place. I've missed it. Thanks for listening. Have a great weekend!

Hope

I've been thinking lately about reading the bible. I've never really had the urge to read it even when I was active in church. Not quite sure why I want to read it or what has come over me. I wonder if that is normal or maybe even weird of me to want to. I think it could possibly be helpful to me in some ways. I don't see anything wrong or bad about it. I've always wondered what it's truly about or what I will make it to be. It might be able to answer my fears and questions about religion. All types. Maybe I can finally find something to believe in. Something I believe in, not what others are making or forcing me to. I have learned something about myself and that is that I need something to believe in. 

Bipolar

I had big plans for today. I was going to go grocery shopping. I wanted to finish packing. I have a lot I need to catch up on. I am behind in my books. Looks like that is all going to have to wait.. because when I woke up this morning I was nauseous and felt sick to my stomach. I hurried and took a anti nausea pill but it was too late by then. I threw up and let me just say that I will never eat Chili's boneless buffalo bites again. :( I am sad about because they used to be my favorite. On our way to the house last night we ordered Chili's to go, I picked it up and met Danny at the house. We are there and he put together my new desk I bought. It's beautiful I will post pictures soon. Our house is starting to look more and more like ours. Anyway waking up this morning with the worst heartburn got me to thinking why is this happening. I ate Chili's last night. My body should have already digested it. WRONG! I have been sick all morning leaving me pretty pissed and upset. I have lots to do in so little time. Please body, just work with me! I am waiting for some Samsung person to come and fix our TV last thing I wanted to do this morning. I need to be in bed. Sweet Danny tried to call and reschedule it so I could go back to bed but there would be a $75 dollar cancellation fee. Now I am sorry but that is a little ridiculous. Come on shit happens. I am going through chemo, and to be honest I never really know how my days are gonna be. I can't believe it would cost that much money to have someone come on another day. I hate Samsung right now! Make better crap so I can watch my favorite shows and be sick in bed. Oops now I kinda feel bad talking all this crap because the Samsung guy just showed up and he is so nice and cute. I love old people (:  As you can tell I am very bipolar. Poor Danny is the one who has to put up with me every day. :/ Enough complaining already so I will talk about something I love. This house. I can't even tell you how excited and happy I am. I love change and this house is a huge change. This is something I have only thought about and now it's happening in real life. I am thrilled. The thing is the house need A LOT of work. But I like that, I have things I can fix and tinker with. Everything isn't perfect and I like that. I am happy and I will be even happier once everything is moved in there. Yay! (:

call it what you want

I was feeling down but then I remembered it's February 1st! I love February. Not only is it my birthday month it's also a month for love. Love, hearts, candy, chocolates, purple, pink, surprises, gifts, jewelry, valentines, cupid.. I've come to love that my birthday falls on Valentine's Day. I used to hate it because if I didn't have a valentine I would be sad and if my friends did have valentines and I didn't, then I wouldn't be able to do anything for my birthday. But luckily that never happened and now that I have a valentine every year, I have nothing to worry about. 


It's official, we are moving this weekend. I am so ready to be out of this apartment. I am going stir crazy. I can't wait to save and put away Danny's paychecks each month instead of it all going to rent. We are both pretty sure we might stay in this house until we are both done with school.. This could be awhile but we would never be broke and would actually have a lot of money. Realistically it would be the best thing to do right now. We could live in comfort than in debt. We are wanting to fix the house up a little bit. It is in some serious need of TLC. The thing I am most excited about is having a yard. I can't wait to mow the lawn and plant flowers, and finally start my own garden. Ready for spring and summer. 

February 1st Agenda:

11am-blog

12pm-pack

1pm-pack

2pm-watch The Talk

3pm-watch Dr. Phil

4pm-pack

5pm-pack

6pm-pack

7pm-pack

8pm-settle on the couch with d.

9pm-read my love dare

10pm-go nigh nigh

*my day consists of packing, as you see. I am going to do my best and get everything ready for the big move. 

p.s. On my last post when I told you anxiety can take off years of your life.. I really meant stress.. sorry to misinform all of you. My mistake I read it wrong. Stress can take those years from you. Maybe not a huge difference but it might be to some of you.

Happy Blogging!