Hopefulness

I've worked up the courage to shave my head. Once I start to feel better, it's gone. This week, it's gone. I am not really sure how I have kept it so long. I am to the point where I don't even want to do my hair. I hardly want to take a shower because it's constantly falling out, everywhere. It's going to be a relieve once it's gone. I can hardly wait now that I have made up my mind. Chemotherapy number five has been, not a piece of cake. I can tell that each treatment is only going to get worse from here. I'm literally exhausted. I am constantly nauseous. That is what I hate the most. But I have some good news.. Thursday I have my petscan and Dr. Hansen is expecting the cancer to be totally gone. GONE! Back to normal. (: I hope he is right. I will still continue to do seven more chemotherapy's, to hopefully get rid of the cancer forever..

I hope. I pray.

I hope I only have to do this once. Please please! Once is enough, right. I'm ready to get back to my normal life. I can't wait to wake up healthy again. Normal. It's exciting to think about. Something I always used to take for granted; my health. I would wake up and complain about something I had to do that day but why? I should be waking up thankful to be alive. To be healthy. I've learned my lesson. I can't wait to wake up healthy.

xoxox