As I become further into my journey I find myself more grateful. I always thought I knew what life was about. I now know what it's about. My mindset is totally different then before. I know what is important, and what isn't. This is a great feeling.
I start my chemotherapy this Thursday.. I should be scared and nervous, but i'm not. I am more relieved and anxious, almost happy. I'm very curious. Curious about how I am going to feel. Mentally and physically. Will I absolutely hate it? Or will I find that it isn't as bas as I thought? Either way I am going to be happy. I am going to live my life as normal as I can. I still want to do all the things that make me happy. I want to live my life, and I am going to.
I have been doing a lot of reading lately. I love it. Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus is such a great book. I think every girl and every guy should read it. (Even though Danny won't.. rude!) It totally makes sense. I finally understand a lot about Danny that I thought I already knew. I am more understanding of the things he does and the things he needs. It's a relief. I never knew guys were so needy in certain ways. Sometimes I mistrust him when I don't really mean to. It's good to know what I am doing right and wrong.
I am chopping off my hair tomorrow. Think I am going to do a cute A-line. I am kinda excited because I love short hair but I am also sad because my hair has gotten so long, the way I want it and I am going to miss it. I think cutting it short will be better for when I start to lose my hair. It won't be as much of a shock.
I will keep you all updated. No doctor's appointments until Thursday. Thursday, I meet with my surgeon so he can check and see how I am healing. I also meet with a lady at the hospital to talk about and look at some wigs. And after that is when I will have my first chemo session! I am so thankful for this beautiful life I have been given. I am so thankful I get to share it with such amazing, supportive people. God has given me everything I could ever ask for and I thank him everyday for everything I have.
Xoxox
I know I've said it before but, I am so proud of you. I knew you would rise to the challenge and become better than you are. I see so much of myself in you and it makes me smile. I know I'm just the Aunt yet it always feels like more. Probably cause we don't have kids. You are getting to realize things that most never do. Inspite of my health issues I've always been thankful and life isn't just average for me...it's amazing, a gift. And although might not fit into any particular mold I am faithful, grateful and so blessed to know the things I do and feel connected to my own faith the way I am. I thank God every day for my life and the luxuries, relationships, lessons and joys within it. I would not be this person today without prior life lessons from Grandma and Grandpa, but most definitely from the trials I was challenged to overcome. You are traveling my road and I know you're headed in the right direction. Bless you Krissy B!
ReplyDeleteYou are so positive about it all! Your amazing! I would be freaking out and using all of this as a reason to be mad at the world, but your not and that's good! Your amazing, and your in my prayers! I am going to go get that book and read it! Hopefully it will give me some insight on what the heck goes on in Braxton's head! hahah
ReplyDeleteYou're a gift from heaven, like I've always said. If anyone can fly through this, it's you. So strong, brave, happy. I'll be with you every step of the way. Love you.
ReplyDeleteHow are you so awesome? I agree with Porschea. I would be a wreck. You are truly an inspiration, you haven't a clue how much you have opened my eyes towards life, Kristin. You are honestly amazing.
ReplyDeleteI think A-lines are absolutely adorable :)
Wow!!!
ReplyDeleteSure would love to bottle up some of your positiveness and pass it around to those that don't realize how life is just really fantastic!
Thank you for your love for life and your excitement with your challenges.
;.)