Loving myself

Day 30: A letter to yourself..

In my letter all I really want to say to myself is live my life my way. Do everything. See everything. Be everything. It's kind of perfect timing. I was given this book, "14,000 things to be happy about." My aunt gave this to me as a gift. She received it when she was battling Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma. She introduced me to this book when I was told I had Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Anyway, I read this book daily. I go through and underline all the things that make me happy. Even when I am having the absolute worst day, it's these simple little things that make me smile. They make me happy. I find this book sometimes turning my whole day around. It's a blessing. I recently purchased "The Wish List" By the same author. I actually received it today. I think I might love this book even more. It's filled with things you want to do in life. Kind of like things you want to do before you die. It's like a little checklist. Once you do something you can check it off in this book. You can also fill in the blanks with personal things you want to do. Things you want to accomplish. Not only does this book inspire me, it brings a lot of hope into my life. I have been highlighting all the things I want to do and it gives me hope. I love having these two books in my life, to inspire me to dream. Some wishes do come true.

I wanted to tell myself a few things I love about myself. I love my imagination. I always find myself in a fairytale. I think of these incredible things, I play them out in my mind and I imagine myself actually living them. I find this my way of coping with reality. When I find myself having a bad day, my imagination can always get me through the hardest times. Your mind is the most powerful thing you have. I love to embrace that. I love that I've always believed in love; that despite the disappointment I have faced, I still believe that real, genuine love exists. I am more than lucky to have found that with my special someone. I hope there is not a day in life I go without love of any kind. From family, a friend, or a lover. Love is the most beautiful feeling. I love my courage. I am very brave. I can overcome anything no matter what the situation may be. I've been through a lot. I've seen a lot and I think that has been a blessing. Going through hard, tough things. I love that I am independent. I've always found myself independent and I always loved that about myself. Independence is such a great trait to have in life. It's hard to get by without it. I can't even imagine. I love my honesty. I think honesty says a lot about who people really are. I find this sometimes rare in people. I am happy that I am confident enough in myself that I allow myself to tell the truth. Even if it may be hurtful towards me or someone else. In this letter I conclude with, be me. Be happy. Be thankful. Be silly. Be nice. Be funny. Be dramatic. Be emotional. Be anything I want to be, I'll never be anything else. It's all in my head. Suddenly I see this is what I want to be. I'm so thankful for the realization.

xoxox