I can see clearly

I've been feeling best late at night, figures. I haven't really hit my "nausea" phase yet, it should be coming within the next few days though. I'm not really looking forward to it. I usually spend my days sleeping. They have been a blur. I dislike not being able to remember my days. This leaves me not being able to read or write. I hate it. This is probably why I have been going a little insane. I've been a beast lately, especially to Danny. I am so lucky that he even puts up with me. He will never understand and he will never really know how sorry I am even though I tell him. I feel like I am letting people down. When I feel negativity and let others hear how I sound, I feel like I'm breaking. I'm weaker then people think and I don't like that to be known. I wish I were stronger for everyone. I wish I could say this journey was a piece of cake. I know it's not supposed to be, I guess I don't like others knowing the weak side of me. I know I am being absolutely ridiculous. 
I've been writing more in my quote book. It leaves me happy and inspired. I hope I fill every page this year, and maybe even start a second book. 
I want to become a stronger person. Stronger than I already am. Sometimes I feel like I am not even the one making me strong, it's others. Without the people I have in my life I would be nothing. This is something I hope to overcome soon. I need more independence from myself. I don't think I have ever realized this. I've become comfortable with life and the people in it. What if that were to change suddenly. My whole world would come crashing down. I am so blessed to have everyone in my life that I do. Thank you for being there for me when I need it most.